Ravings!!!

I am now another year older, and honestly I feel no different. I think I had a few moments of "OH DEAR GOD I'M GOING TO BE 27" a few days ago. Those have passed though, and I realized that I don't care. Getting older currently doesn't phase me.

So my love life has gone from practically non-existent into total ambiguity, but hey at least I got some! I'm trying really hard not to be a girl!

Okay, so sometimes life just wallops you. Anyone who knows me well knows that I've kind of had a crush on someone that I used to work with. He and I are friends now and hang out on a somewhat regular basis. When we do it ends up being just him and me up all night (like till 8am). He has a girlfriend. I think I'm falling in love with him. I think I've been doing this for awhile, like since before I met and fell in love with Adam. And of course I've still got some feelings there, mostly just a vast quantity of affection and mutual sexual attraction. I realize that what I really need to do is pursue some of my other options, man wise. I've got a few things on the line and I think I need to be a bit more enthusiastic in those pursuits so that I can redirect my attentions, because FUCK!

Happy Holidays!

So I had a second interview at Panera. Apparently they've had really bad luck recently with people with two jobs. She said she'd call me tomorrow if my references checked out. Hopefully my friends vouch for me. Anyway.... I was talking to Envinoveritas about religion today, because one the online dating sites I've joined ask you about it. I was telling her that I don't like to say that I'm agnostic, because I don't really understand Agnosticism. And that I don't like saying that I'm an atheist, because atheists tend to be very militant, and I'm not militant. I don't care what someone believes so long as they don't try to convert me to their beliefs. I'm more than willing to discuss beliefs, but in a purely analytic manner really. The way I put it to her is that "it's not that I don't believe in God, it's just that I don't believe in God." What I mean is that I don't believe in God, but I'm willing to admit that there's a chance that I'm wrong and a deity does exist. But in that case I believe that said deity has made me who I am and understands me and accepts me. I'm just curious now what other people believe. Please share.

I hate being sick!

I'm not hung over, but I am violently nauseas. And somehow violently nauseas and bloated feeling I still weight three pounds less than I thought.

well, okay not really w00t. I have orientation today for Steak n Shake. Which means I should prolly get off and find my damn ssn card. so yeah....

ciao

Someone is trying to message me from Ghana????????

If you're going to try to talk to me, at least try to make decent conversation.

So I'm testing something, then figured why not update as well. Adam and I have decided to forgo the whole fuck buddies, break up sex thing. For some reason I feel guilty about having sex with him. And as I told him I'm not sure that it's him I want. He told me he thought I just wanted cock.

On a side note. I'm going to *meet* Minnesota (Mell calls him this). I know I'm crazy.

Edited because freudian slip or typo made me forget the word meet.

I'm fucked up. Adam and I are going to go to the Renn fest if i get the day off, and then he wants to take me down to campus to find people to hook up with, and i'm kind of ok with it in theory. I don't know how i'll actually respond. I still have every intention of having sex with him again however, b/c it's fantastic sex with someone i know is clean. And honestly i'm feeling rather over it right now. And i'm still talking to the guy from mn, because i'm insane.

I swear to you all that I've met the former boy's personality twin online this morning.

My life marginally sucks. I can't say it's awful, but still...

My boy is no longer mine. He broke up with me, and needless to say I'm am decidedly broken hearted. I am also however resigned to getting over this as quickly as possible and moving on. The man hunt may not have started just yet, but I don't think I'll wait too long. I want to be friends with him, and so long as I'm still in love with him that will be too hard. soo... yeahh....

So the dog is not over her interminable illness. Now we're trying more meds and new food with digestive aide powder. I'm at a bit of a loss over why the Powers that Be are trying to kill off people's pets, and wish they'd just back off my dog! Anyway... I'm going to go.

Ciao!

So the last time I posted I was sick. You may or may not be happy to learn that I am over the sinus infection of doom. The dog, too, appears to be over her somewhat interminable illness. Currently my life is going on the okay side of things. There is much that makes me happy, but some serious need to buckle down and pay off debt at the same time. Debt paying off, while rewarding, is seldom a fun experience and I have rather a lot of it. Anywhoo...
Not much is going on really. I go to work. I come home. I spend time with the boy, who now has a job, so Yay Boy!

I think that is all for now.

I'm home sick today. Stupid sinus infection. I'm tierd and miserable and kind of bored. I don't really have enough energy for the interenets.

I just lost my completely incoherent post.

That's probably okay though.

Were anyone to read it, they'd probably worry about me.

I think I need to go for a drive.

So not much is going on. I'm just happy right now. I have my boy, and he makes me exceedingly happy. I got a raise at work, and amnot so poor. Things in general are looking good!

I am home sick today. My head was like, "ha bitch, suffer the wrath of Sinus!"

So I'm sitting on the couch contemplating what all I need to ease my pounding head and ensure that it does not become an infection.

OJ is high on the list. As well as some food for lunch purposes, popsicles, because mmm... popsicles, and lets see a humidfier and some non-drying decongestants. I doubt I need much else. well.... Maybe a pint of hagen-daas strawberry because i feel crappy.... yes, yes, i know I'm terrible.

I think today's activities will consist of a run to the store and then snuggling on the couch for movies/with book. Sounds like heaven.

I go now to brush my hair and put on clothes and the like.

Ciao, bambinos!